Dealing with the wild cards 4


Reflections of a retirement coachThoughts from a Retirement Coach

By Mariella Vigneux, MBA, ACC
Certified Professional Coach

 

 

 

 

It was hard to know just what to think when my doctor’s office called and asked me to come in to discuss my test results. When I saw the doctor, she said, “We’ve got to talk about your bone density. You’ve got significant osteoporosis.” Wow, I thought!  Now that’s a wild card!  Out of the blue. Unexpected.

My lab report indicates that within the next 10 years there is an intermediate risk that I will break a bone.  I know what that will feel like, having broken many bones in my childhood: both arms, both legs, and two chipped vertebrae.  They hurt.  And then they heal.  The only difference is that, next time I break a bone, it won’t heal as easily because the bones have become fragile.  The break may become infected.  I may develop a blood clot while bedridden, leading to a stroke. I might develop a dowager’s hump. Become wheelchair bound.  I may be sent to a leper colony and forgotten by everyone who ever knew me.  Am I catastrophizing?  Am I feeling sorry for myself?  I don’t know.  I’m just a little bummed out, I guess.

 

Contemplating the timeline

It takes time to process this kind of information.  At home on my couch, I contemplate.  My cats contemplate me.  The leaves continue to fall from the trees. The sun continues to shine.  But I feel a shift in my perception of my world.  I see a shortened timeline.  It’s not that the timeline has changed; it’s only that I now see the timeline more clearly.

I recognize how self-indulgent my thoughts are. Lots of people have osteoporosis.  After looking into it, I discovered an estimated 10 per cent of Canadians 40 years of age or older reported having been diagnosed with osteoporosis.  One in three women will suffer a fracture from osteoporosis in their lifetime.  One in five men. With most of these people, their osteoporosis will go undiagnosed and untreated.  Twenty-eight per cent of women and 37% of men who suffer a hip fracture will die within the following year.  I imagine these are older people though, not 60-year-olds like me!

I know the medical news could have been much worse.  I could be one of the many people diagnosed with cancer, dementia, bipolar disorder, or any number of nasty diseases.  Worst of all, I could be one of those parents whose child has been diagnosed with a nasty terminal illness.

 

Dark versus light

And do these wild cards really matter?  Will they change how I live today?  Maybe a little.  I’ll do what my doctor says – I’ll take 2000 UIs of vitamin D, I’ll increase my intake of calcium to 1500 mg per day, and I’ll walk more.  The good news… I love milk, cheese, eggs, English muffins, kale, and yogurt… no boring dairy-free or gluten-free diet for me!   And maybe this wake-up call will only intensify my enjoyment of life – the appreciation of dark chocolate squares melting in my mouth, the warmth of a duvet fresh from the dryer, the view of ice-encased crabapples through my window.  Instead of focusing on the dark possibilities, receiving a wild card can lead me to live each moment with more clarity and vitality.

All that has happened is that, once again, I am facing a new limitation – or a new opportunity, as my better-adjusted friend would say.  (For more on this topic, see Adjusting to a new limitation – what works?)  We can expect our health to diminish.  And, when it does, we create opportunities to reconstruct what we’ve lost, but in new ways.  We focus on others instead of ourselves. We remain hopeful.  Eventually, I find, we revert to our normal emotional equilibrium.  We become ourselves again.  It’s like a game of cards.  We keep getting dealt new cards, each card changing our hand, changing our game plan.  I don’t want to be one of those card players who always complains about their cards, as if the card dealer is out to get them.  As if their luck is any worse than anyone else’s.  Get on with it.  Enjoy the game, for heaven’s sake!

My partner has a lovely way of seeing aging and the procession of body breakdowns presented to us.  He laughs.  He sees the business of getting old as amusing.  And he says that if we let it get to us, it can crush us.  He also reminds me to be hopeful.  The medical advancements are startling.

The sun is now lighting up the massive, old sugar maple outside my window.  The cats are sleeping.  My chest no longer feels tight.  My normal good humour is reasserting itself.  Thank you for being part of my therapy.

 

 


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4 thoughts on “Dealing with the wild cards

  • Ellen Crymble

    No one will ever forget or neglect you Mariella. You are a force to be reckened with. However my mother and my mother in law both have osteoporosis and it is no laughing matter. Keep to your diet. Keep walking. No risk taking things like downhill skiing however. Put ice cream on your list. Cheers. Ellen

    • Mariella Post author

      Aw, thanks, Ellen! Your poor mother and mother-in-law. I’m starting to hear from people with osteoporosis and they aren’t telling bedtime stories. As for not taking risks, the day before hearing from my doc, I was putting shingles on our roof, and also at the top of a very tall ladder – washing windows. Hm. Caution and ice cream are good ideas.

  • Donald Kellett

    Mariella:

    3 weeks ago, walking down Thermal Hill in Coquitlam BC with your sister-in-law Susan, I tripped, and fell down on the sidewalk. Luckily I had a bruise, a scraped elbow – and no other issues! Thank goodness. I turn 70 tomorrow! I have been worried about bone density, but it seems to be hanging in there. I plan to stop tumbling down hills! Got to be more carefull!

    Don Kellett

    • Mariella Post author

      I happen to know you are a very fit 70-year-old, Don. It’s all those stairs you climb each day! But stop tumbling or you’ll be a Done Don. Happy Birthday!